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Chapter 3

An Overdue Talk 

Hermione was still searching for her diary, but was getting no success. She was scared about what if somebody got his or her hands on it. Moreover, what she would do if Harry found it.

It's been almost a week since Hermione had a decent conversation with Harry. After his outburst in the common room, Harry has been avoiding her. He would only talk to her when it was absolutely necessary and he had no other alternative. It was pretty much clear that he was avoiding Hermione only, as he was talking with everyone else.

It's not that Hermione didn't try to speak with him. She tried so many times during last week to talk to him but he always made excuses to get away from her. Hermione was a patient girl but she too had her limit. Towards the end of the week, Hermione decided that it was more than she could take from Harry. She tried all the friendly ways to make him talk to her; however, she hardly had any success. Now was the time to use the force. She knew Harry was going to be very angry with what she was about to do, but he left her with no other alternative.

It was Sunday morning. Hermione woke up early and got ready. Gryffindor common room was still empty when she arrived there. Hermione decided what she was going to do. Last night Ron had told her that their Quidditch team was having an early practice. Hermione had asked Ron to bring Harry in the empty Charms class after their practice.

Hermione checked the time. There was still half an hour before the breakfast time.

'There practice should be over by now.' Hermione thought.

Hermione left the common room and made her way to the Charms corridor. It took her about 10 minutes to reach there. When she reached there, she noticed that Charms class was open and voices could be heard, coming from the class.

Hermione slowly made her way to the class and peeked inside. Harry and Ron were there. Ron was crouched under the table, looking for something, while Harry was standing near the teacher's table, where two broomsticks were lying. He was looking very annoyed.

"Did you find it Ron?" Harry asked in a frustrated voice.

"No Harry," was Ron's reply.

"Ron, how can you forget your Charms homework here?" Harry asked exasperatedly.

"Wait. When did you do your homework? It's not due till next Friday." Harry said frustratingly, making his way to the back of the class, where Ron was under the table.

Ron came out of the table and found Harry standing in front of him, his arms crossed in front of his chest.

Hermione decided that it was time to save Ron. She entered the room silently.

It looked like Harry sensed her presence as he turned around and looked at her.

For a couple of minutes everything was quiet as Harry and Hermione simply stared at each other.

Hermione suddenly realized how much she had missed Harry. It felt like ages since she had seen him this close for more than just a couple of seconds.

Hermione had expected Harry to walk away as soon as he noticed her presence; however, he didn't. He was still standing there, looking at her intently.

For a moment or two, Harry was surprised to see Hermione in the Charms classroom. However, as surprise wore off, he realized that he wanted nothing more than to pull Hermione in his arms and kiss her.

'Wow! When did I start thinking about kissing Hermione?' Harry thought feeling astonished. He felt guilty seeing distressed look on Hermione's face. There were faint brownish circles under her eyes; clearly, the resultant of worry and sleepless nights and Harry was sure all this was because of him.

Lost in thoughts Harry and Hermione didn't notice Ron sighing with relief and leaving the class with the broomsticks in his hands.

Hermione stepped closer to Harry and touched his cheek. Harry closed his eyes at her touch, covering her hand with his own.

"I have missed you Harry." Hermione said in a soft voice. Harry opened his eyes and looked at his best friend and most important person in his life.

"I have missed you too." Harry replied in heartfelt voice.

Hermione moved closer to him and hugged him tight, before letting him go.

"Don't you think Harry I deserve an explanation over why have you been avoiding me for last one week?" Hermione said in a hurt voice.

Harry remembered why he was avoiding her and why he was angry with her. He had almost forgotten it after seeing her so close to him.

"I know, but I don't think I want to tell you. It had got nothing to do with you." Harry said stiffly.

Hermione felt her anger rising at Harry's reply.

"So that's it. Huh? You don't want to tell me. If you remember, we tell everything to each other. Since when had you started hiding things from me Harry?" Hermione shouted.

"You just decide it on your own that you don't want to tell me. Fine, then why are you avoiding me? Of course, whatever you are not telling me has something to do with me. So I have every right to know what's bothering you, concerning me." Hermione said angrily.

Harry could feel his own anger rising at Hermione's angry tirade. It looked like Hermione was going to continue. However, Harry interrupted her.

"Aren't you being a hypocrite?" Harry asked sarcastically.

Hermione was shocked at what Harry said.

"What you mean by that?" Hermione asked in a trembling voice.

"You say that I am hiding things from you. However, from where I am seeing the things, I am not the only one who's hiding something. You have been hiding something from me as well." Harry said heatedly.

"What are you talking about?" Hermione asked in a confused and a little worried voice.

"I'll tell you what am I talking about?" Harry said gritting his teeth, as he took hold of Hermione's wrist tightly and started pulling her along with him out of the Charms classroom.

"Harry, what?" Hermione squealed.

However, Harry didn't respond. He simply dragged Hermione with him to the Gryffindor tower and then to the 6th year boys' dormitory.

When Harry opened the door of boys' dormitory, he found Dean and Seamus reading a Quidditch magazine.

"Leave the dorm." Harry said in a commanding voice.

"Why? It's our dorm too. You can go somewhere to snog each other." Seamus retorted back. He didn't realize the danger he was putting himself in, by aggravating Harry more than he already was. However, Dean realized. He knew about the tension, which was brewing between Harry and Hermione for last one week. Looking at the way Harry was holding Hermione's hand and the look of distress on Hermione's face, he knew something was going to happen. It was better to leave them as quickly as possible.

"Come on Seamus. Let's go." Dean said hastily, getting up from the bed.

"What?" Seamus exclaimed.

"Just get up." Dean hissed.

Seamus scowled at Harry when he moved to leave the dorm with Dean; Harry scowled back at him.

Harry released Hermione's hand from his firm grip and closed the door of the dorm. He took out his wand from the pocket of his Quidditch robes and cast a Muffliato charm and a locking charm on the door.

Harry turned and looked at Hermione who was massaging her wrist.

"What the hell was that for?" She said snappily, "You could have asked me to come with you."

Harry didn't say anything as he moved to where his bed was situated. He knelt down to open his trunk and started looking for the diary. Hermione looked at him curiously, as he was searching.

After a couple of minutes, Harry stood up with diary in his hand and turned around to look at Hermione.

Hermione met his gaze with her own curious eyes, before her eyes fell on the diary in his hand. Her face turned white.

"Do you know what this is, Hermione?" Harry asked in a calm voice as he walked towards Hermione and stopped right in front of her just a couple of inches apart.

Hermione simply stared at the diary in Harry's hand. She gathered her courage and looked in Harry's eyes. He had an unreadable look in his eyes.

Hermione knew since the cat was already out of the bag, there was no point in denying.

"Where did you find it?" She asked tentatively.

"I found it in the common room." Harry said in a calm voice.

Hermione simply nodded. She took a deep breath and asked the next decisive question.

"Did you read it?" She whispered, preparing herself for his answer.

"Yes." Harry answered in a low voice.

Nobody spoke anything after that. They simply stared at each other, before Hermione decided to break their staring contest.

Hermione knew she was in deep trouble. There were very high chances that she might lose Harry's friendship forever. Her heart was breaking little by little, as the silence stretched and Harry didn't say anything else.

While Hermione was feeling like breaking down, Harry was going through his own personal turmoil. He wanted to shout at Hermione, he wanted to ask her that why she didn't tell him about her feelings. He wanted to ask her that why she kept everything bottled up inside her heart, when she was hurting so much. Didn't she know that if she was in pain, it hurt him as well? He finally snapped.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Harry asked angrily.

Hermione looked up at him in surprise. "What did you expect from me to tell you?" Hermione asked, looking astonished.

Hermione didn't know what to think. Did Harry really expect her to tell him about her feelings? If he did, it was completely ridiculous. For God's sake, he was already pining for Cho that time.

"About your feelings," Harry answered without any hesitation, as though if it was the most obvious answer in the whole world.

Hermione looked at Harry in disbelief. "Honestly Harry! Are you out of your mind? Did you really expect me to tell about my feelings, when you were already infatuated with Cho Chang?" She asked incredulously.

Harry was speechless for a moment.

"She doesn't matter. You should have still told me about your feelings." Harry said fiercely.

Hermione crossed her arms across her chest and looked at Harry.

"And what would you have done Harry, confess your love for me?" Hermione asked sarcastically.

Harry was quiet so Hermione continued.

"Why did you read it? It's called a personal diary for a reason." Hermione snapped.

However, her anger evaporated in a matter of seconds.

"Why does it matter even, Harry? What I feel is my business, no one else's. You were not supposed to read that diary." She said in a tired voice.

"How can you say it even? What you feel is my business, you are my business. I want to know if something or someone is hurting you, even if it's me." Harry shouted in reply.

"I didn't want to hurt you. I knew you didn't feel the way I felt for you and knowing you, you would have blamed yourself over something on which you had no control." Hermione said in a sad voice, looking at the floor.

Harry's shoulders stooped low in defeat. "All those times when we were talking about my relationship with Cho, when you gave me advice regarding how to approach Cho, on outside you were always smiling, but inside you were hurting. You said you didn't want to hurt me. But I am hurting now. What are you going to do about it Hermione?" Harry said, hurt evident in his voice.

"Remember, you suffer I suffer." Harry said sarcastically.

Harry gripped Hermione's chin lightly and raised her face upwards so that he could see in her eyes.

"Don't you understand Hermione? You are the most important person in my life. Do you really think that I would choose Cho or anyone else over you?" Harry asked in a soft voice.

Hermione's eyes glazed with unshed tears.

"That's exactly the reason why I didn't tell you Harry. I know you would have chosen me. But it would have been out of friendship or pity for my unrequited feelings. I wanted you to choose me out of love. Not a friend's love, but a lover's love, Harry. I am in love with you and I want you to love me back the way I do. And the problem is that you don't feel the same way." Hermione said as a tear rolled down her cheek.

Hermione quickly wiped it away and smiled at Harry, putting up a brave front.

"But you know what? It's ok. I didn't expect you to return my feelings. Nobody can help the way they feel. And to be truth I was alright with it. As long as you didn't know about it, it was easier to be around you. However, now that you know about it, things might get a little awkward between us. And I am sorry for hurting you. But I assure you that our friendship is strong enough to get through this entire debacle." Hermione said with a friendly smile.

"And don't worry, one day I would get over you." Hermione said the last part with a chuckle.

Harry didn't say anything, his mind was completely blank. He knew he loved Hermione. But was it just a friend's love or more than that, he didn't know. He was sure of one thing though. Whatever he felt for Hermione, it was a very strong feeling. Then there was this sudden desire to kiss her.

He had never been in love before so he didn't know how it felt to be in love with someone. There was no one with whom he could share his confusion.

Hermione interrupted his thoughts. "I better go. They would be thinking that we are snogging here." Hermione said in an amused voice, in an attempt to cover her pain. However, looking at Harry's face she knew it was a failed attempt.

Without saying anything, Hermione cast an Alohomora spell on the door and left the dormitory leaving a hurt, sad, and confused Harry behind.

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Chapter 2

Harry rubbed his head. He realized who it was. "Hermione" he whispered, taking in that he had opened a new world of secrets about his best friend.

Harry couldn't believe that Hermione was in love with him. Hermione Granger, his best friend of last 5 years was in love with him and never bothered to tell him. But how could it be? She never said anything, nor did she act like she loved him.

Hell! Hermione even gave him the advice regarding Cho.

Cho was the Ravenclaw beauty in the diary. Hermione always smiled whenever he told her about his feelings for Cho. She never gave any indication that she was in pain. How was he supposed to know?

Harry kept on reading.

'Harry and Cho broke up today. Harry didn't tell me anything. I eavesdropped on them. I know it was wrong, but it wasn't intentional.

Today in the meeting of Dumbledore's Army, we had dueling lessons. Oh sorry! I forgot to tell about Dumbledore's Army. It is a defense group, Harry, Ron and I have formed. We have to do this because that stupid toad, Umbridge, wouldn't let us practice defense spells in the class. I mean how we are going to pass our O.W.L.S and fight death eaters. Well, enough about DA.

So yeah, after the meeting was over, I was arranging the defense books back in shelf on the far end of the room where there were various shelves filled with defense books.

I think Harry and Cho thought that they were alone. It was then that I heard their conversation.

Cho was asking Harry to break his friendship with me. She was forcing him to choose between me and her. I was so scared that moment that Harry would choose her. Next moment I realized that I was underestimating our friendship and the strong bond I shared with Harry. Harry chose me. He broke up with Cho. I was so happy.'

'Harry told me and Ron that he had broken up with Cho, he didn't give the reason for break up. I should have been very happy, like I was last night when I heard them breaking up. However, I wasn't. Harry looked sad. May be he should have chosen her.'

Harry looked at the diary incredulously.

'Has she gone mad? How can she think that I would ever choose anyone else above her? Someone so intelligent can be so stupid at times.' Harry thought with a bitter smile. He continued reading…

'Harry's interview with beetle Rita has been a huge success. Everyone in the school has started believing that Harry wasn't lying about Voldemort's return. 2 days back I spoke Voldemort's name for the first time, Harry was impressed.'

'Downside of the success of the interview- Harry and Cho are back together. Cho even spoke to me congratulating me for arranging the interview.'

Harry realized that entries in the diary were taking a depressing tone moving towards the end of the fifth year.

'Today Harry and I were to study together in the library after dinner. However, he went for a walk with Cho. I waited for him till 11 PM, but he didn't show up. He forgot, I didn't remind him.'

Harry remembered that day; Cho had dragged him out of the castle, near the lake. He had lost the track of time and by the time he realized, it was already too late for his study session with Hermione. When he arrived back at the common room, Hermione was sitting there alone, reading a book.

Harry thought of apologizing to her. However, to his surprise Hermione didn't mentioned anything about study session, like she didn't remember at all, so Harry let it go as well. Now he knew she hadn't forgotten. Last line on the page told him how much she was hurting that night.

'Is Harry forgetting me?'

Harry curled his fist angrily. She was hurting and yet she smiled.

Harry felt angry towards Hermione. How could she smile and talk normally with him about Cho? She was hurting inside all those times, yet she didn't say anything to him. How could she just lie so easily to him? How could she hide her feelings from him? Why would she hide her feelings?

Harry knew why she hid it. Nevertheless, he was angry at Hermione for hiding it from him. They were best friend and best friends didn't keep secrets from each other.

He continued reading the diary, which revealed deep, hurtful secrets of Hermione.

'She is ready to feel all the hurt, but wouldn't tell me about her feelings. Is she a Gryffindor or not?' Harry thought angrily. He was angry at Hermione for not telling him and angry at himself for not seeing Hermione's feelings for him.

Harry continued reading the diary. He decided not to go to dinner that night. He remained in his dormitory, reading the diary.

Hermione didn't understand a thing about Quidditch, still she attended Quidditch matches, just to see Harry play. She liked his windswept messy hair. According to Hermione, Harry looked damn handsome in Gryffindor Quidditch robes.

Harry found that somehow over the years he had become the reason for Hermione's existence in magical world. Whatever she read or learned, she always associated it with Harry and how would it help him. Her knowledge, her thoughts, her experiences, her feelings and emotions…everything revolved around Harry.

'It makes me feel useful whenever Harry needs me. I don't know what I would do when he won't need me anymore. I just don't want to think about it.'

Harry had to try hard to suppress his emotions, which were bubbling under the surface. He wanted to go to Hermione straightaway and confront her. However, he continued to read the diary, getting deeper into Hermione's world of secrets.

She had thought of how it would feel to kiss him, how would it feel to be in his arms and how would it feel if he looked at her the same way he looked at Cho, even for a second.

Hermione had once thought of learning to fly, so as to impress Harry. However, she cancelled the idea the moment she looked at the broomstick.

'Ha! One day I am going to make her fly on a broomstick.' Harry thought with amusement, forgetting his anger for a moment. But it returned reading further.

Harry found that Hermione had cried for him so many times. She did everything for him. She had even let her hopes rise when Harry and Chon again broke up towards the end of the year.

(A/N: - I am not mentioning about Sirius because he survived at the end of the fifth year.)

He found that Hermione had never fully healed from the curse she was hit with, at the Ministry. Harry shuddered, remembering that night. Voldemort had lured him to the Ministry, making him believe that death eaters had captured Sirius. But Sirius wasn't captured. That night Harry had almost lost Hermione. Luckily, Order had arrived on time and Hermione was saved. Hermione was unconscious for a whole week and Harry never left her side. Somehow, he didn't know how to live without Hermione.

Harry pulled himself out of his musings and went back to reading, finding other things about his best friend.

She even had nightmares, repercussion of the curse. She had gone through a mild depression during the summer vacation after fifth year because her feelings for her best friend were becoming too much for her to handle.

'And she didn't feel like telling me.' Harry thought resentfully.

He continued to read, but last entry of the diary broke his resolve to control his emotions.

'I know Harry would never love me the way I love him. It's time to let go of all my hopes, it's time to give up on him.'

Angry tears welled up in his eyes. He snapped shut the diary and threw it on the floor. He kept staring at the diary, never moving from his place on the bed.

Harry heard the footsteps outside the dormitory. He quickly wiped his tears away. He was picking the diary from the floor when door opened. It was Ron.

"Harry, what are you doing? You missed the dinner." Ron said as he entered into the dormitory.

"I was not feeling well, so just decided to skip the meal." Harry replied as he sat back on his bed, slipping the diary under his pillow, which fortunately for him, went unnoticed by Ron.

"How are you feeling now?" Ron asked sitting on his bed.

"Better," Harry replied.

Ron nodded. "Well, then you better go and tell Hermione about it. She was worried about you and sent me here to check upon you." Ron said with a huge yawn and closing his eyes.

Harry chuckled at this and nodded. He got up from his bed and made his way to the common room.

Harry stopped at the last stair. He took a moment to look at Hermione who was sitting on the couch in front of the fireplace. She looked so normal, who would have believed that she was wounded inside.

'I have to give her credit. She's quite a good actress.' Harry thought bitterly.

Harry slowly made his way towards Hermione. Hermione looked up and smiled at him.

'She's smiling, a very effective mask to hide away all the pain, from me.' Harry thought with same bitter feeling. Harry didn't return her smile.

"Ron said, you were worried about me." Harry said coldly.

Hermione was taken aback by his tone.

"Yeah, you didn't show up at dinner." Hermione replied, looking at Harry with a wary look in her eyes.

"I was not feeling well." Harry replied abruptly.

Hermione merely nodded. "I brought you a sandwich, thought you would be hungry." Hermione said, gesturing towards the covered plate, which was kept on the table beside the couch.

"Thank you, but I am not feeling hungry." Harry replied looking away from Hermione's worried face.

Right that moment he couldn't look at Hermione, knowing that she was hiding so many secrets from him. It hurt him to look at her and know that she just gave up on him. He was scared that if he stayed any longer in her company he would snap and shout at her, confronting her about the diary. He knew it wasn't the right moment to talk, at least not until he had his emotions in control.

"Good night," Harry said and turned to leave.

However, Hermione grabbed his hand. "Harry, you haven't eaten anything since the lunch time. You should eat the sandwich." She said, a little forcefully.

"I told you I am not hungry." Harry snapped angrily at her, quickly snatching his hand away from her grasp.

Hermione stared at Harry with shocked look on her face, which was quickly replaced by hurt. Some of the other students were also looking at them. Harry stared at Hermione for a moment and then quickly darted back towards the staircase leading to the boys' dormitories.

Next day Hermione tried to talk to him during the breakfast, asking him about whether he was angry at her. However, Harry simply answeredno and ignored her for the rest of the day.

This routine of avoiding Hermione continued for next couple of days. Others too had started to notice the tension between Harry and Hermione. When Ron confronted Harry about this, Harry just said that nothing was wrong between him and Hermione. Words were spreading around that Harry had broken his friendship with Hermione. Harry knew it was not true, but right now he was hurting too much to right the things between him and Hermione.

As Harry continued to avoid Hermione, Hermione became more and more depressed with each passing day. Various doubts and insecurities were making their way into her mind. She had started to think that Harry didn't want to be friends with her anymore. Was it because of Cho? Was Harry finally going to end their friendship, so he could be with Cho? Hermione felt guilty for doubting Harry's friendship. She knew Harry would never end their friendship because of Cho. Then why was he avoiding her?

She tried so many times to talk with Harry. However, Harry always had excuses to avoid her company. She couldn't help but think that Harry was hiding something from her. It hurt her to think that he didn't trust her. She couldn't help but cry at the helplessness she was feeling due to Harry avoiding her. She wasn't used to Harry avoiding her.

While Harry continued to avoid Hermione, there was another big problem for Hermione. She had not found her diary yet. She checked every place where she might have lost the diary. She checked her dormitory, Gryffindor common room, and library. She even asked Dobby and other house-elves, if they found any diary while cleaning the Gryffindor tower, but with no success.

Even though she had placed the privacy charms on the diary, Hermione was still scared about what if anyone read her diary. She was sure that nobody would be able to break her charms, but was scared nonetheless.

Cho Chang was the happiest human being in the castle of Hogwarts. She had heard the rumors of broken friendship between Harry and Hermione. She had seen in the Great Hall, the way Harry had stopped sitting with Hermione.

Cho was sure that Harry had broken his friendship with Hermione, so that he could get back together with her. Cho knew that Harry still liked her and was finally going to choose her over Hermione.

Hermione Granger, she was always a thorn in the bouquet of happiness of Cho's life. Cho had been very angry when Harry chose Hermione over her.

However, now their friendship was over. Cho knew what she had to do now. She was going to tell him that she wanted to get back with him. She was going to ask him to go with her to the next Hogsmeade trip. With no Hermione to disturb them, this was going to be a great date.

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Chapter 1

Lost Diary

"Oh honestly Harry! Why don't you just go there and ask her out?" Hermione Granger asked her best friend of last 5 years.

"What…What are you talking about? Harry stammered, feigning ignorance.

"What part of the question you didn't understand?" Hermione asked feeling a bit annoyed.

Harry and Hermione were sitting in the library, doing their Transfiguration homework. On the table next to them, Cho Chang was sitting with her friends, doing her work, and occasionally laughing at something her friends were saying.

Instead of focusing on his homework, Harry was staring at the girl on the next table. Even after his disastrous relationship with Cho Chang last year, Harry was still hoping that they would get back together.

Cho looked up and found Harry staring at her. She blushed and gave a small smile to him. Soon her smile turned into a frown, when her eyes fell on Hermione, who was busy in writing on her parchment, unaware of glaring Cho.

Harry followed her line of sight and sighed. It was clear that Cho was not happy with Harry's friendship with Hermione Granger.

Hermione looked at Harry when he sighed.

"Harry, it's been more than 2 months since the term started. Why don't you just ask Cho out and put me out of your misery." Hermione said tiredly.

Harry looked at Hermione oddly. "Why are you in misery? It's me who is not able to do anything about my feelings. And what you mean byyour misery?" He asked.

Hermione simply rolled her eyes. "You suffer, I suffer, Harry. We are best friends, remember." Hermione said with a hint of a smile on her face. Harry smiled back genuinely.

His eyes turned back to Cho. "I don't think she would go out with me." Harry said in a dejected voice.

"Why not? As far as I can see, she still likes you. I have seen her numerous times, staring at you in the Great Hall." Hermione said, looking a bit confused.

Harry thought for a moment about what to answer. He knew he couldn't tell Hermione that it was because of their friendship that Cho wouldn't go out with him.

"The way things ended last year between us, I don't think she would want to be with me again." He replied.

Hermione didn't say anything, just looked intently at Harry.

"Is it because of me, I mean our friendship? You know, if that is the case, we should not hang out together anymore." Hermione said in a small voice.

"No Hermione," Harry said almost loudly.

"Don't you dare to ever think that our friendship is not important. You and your friendship are very important to me." Harry said fiercely, grabbing both hands of Hermione in his own.

Hermione simply grinned at him, but it hurt her to keep the façade of a smiling best friend.

Hermione Granger had been in love with Harry Potter for last 2 years. However, she had no idea how to tell him. She, so desperately wanted to tell him. Nevertheless, his infatuation with Cho Chang stopped her from doing so.

She wanted to share her feelings with someone. She couldn't tell Ron, or her other best friend as he was the one she had feelings for. Ginny, Hermione's only female best friend, had a crush on Harry, so Hermione couldn't tell her either.

With no one left to share her feelings with, Hermione had started writing a personal diary. She had been writing it since her fourth year when she started having feelings for Harry. It wasn't day-to-day things that she wrote about in her diary. She just wrote about her feelings for Harry in that. Almost every thought she had about Harry for last 2 years was written in the diary.

Her diary became like a best friend for her. It helped her in relieving her tension and hurt she felt whenever she was around Harry. However, nobody knew about Hermione's habit to write in the diary, not even her dorm mates.

Hermione always carried her diary around with her. She had put a spell on her diary, so that only she could see it. If somebody looked into her bag, they would not be able to see the diary.

Somehow, Hermione was always able to hide her emotions with ease. She could easily smile, whenever Harry mentioned about Cho and his feelings for her. She never really had any hopes in her heart that Harry would feel the same for her. So without any expectations, it was easy for her to be around Harry whenever he looked at Cho with dreamy expressions on his face. Nothing changed for her. She was still the same know-it-all best friend of Harry Potter and Ronald Weasley who helped them with their homework and girl problems.

However, sometimes she did feel like crying. Whenever she felt like this, she would simply go to any secluded corner of the castle, where nobody could find her and cry her heart out. Luckily, for her, no one noticed anything out of the ordinary about her.

Unfortunately, for Hermione, a week after the day in the library, she had lost her diary. She couldn't remember where she kept it last time.

Next day
It was the early evening time. Harry was sitting alone in the common room. He had just gotten back from his Quidditch practice. After the practice, Ron had left to meet his girlfriend, Luna Lovegood and Hermione was in the library since afternoon.

Harry was completely knackered and just wanted to rest. Common room was almost empty, so Harry decided to get some rest on the couch.

As he lied on the couch, something poked onto his back.

"What the hell?" He cursed.

He got up to see what was poking on his back. He couldn't see anything on the couch. He just shrugged his shoulders and lied back. Once again, he felt something against his back. He groaned in frustration and got up.

He looked down at the couch and nothing was there. Then Harry got an idea and started running his hands on the couch. His hand touched something and he picked it up. He couldn't see it, but from the feel of it, he could tell that it was a book or at least that's what the object felt like.

He took out his wand from his pocket and pointed it on the object in his hand.

'Revelio' he said.

Harry realized that it wasn't a book. It was a diary with a cover of grey color. Nothing was written on it.

From the looks of it, Harry could presume that it was a personal diary.

'Whose diary could it be?' Harry thought, with curiosity starting to bubble in his mind. Since there was invisibility spell on the diary, whosoever owned the diary, didn't want anyone else to read it.

Harry was in dilemma about what to do with the diary. He opened the diary in the hope to find something about the owner of the diary. However, first page was blank. Harry again tried the Revelio spell, but nothing appeared.

Harry tried some different spells as well, but nothing came into view on the page. He sighed in defeat.

For a long time he contemplated what to do with it. He could have easily given the diary to Hermione, who would have found the right owner without any problem. Curiosity got better of him nevertheless. He left the common room to go to his dormitory.

6th year boys' dormitory was empty when Harry entered it. He exhaled in relief and settled on his bed. There was still some time for dinner to start. He opened the diary and turned the first page. Second page was empty as well. Nevertheless, this time Harry was sure that it wasn't empty like the first page. Harry again tried various advanced spells, thanks to Hermione ha had learned over the years. Finally, after a long half an hour of trying, Harry managed to break the spell on diary and a curvy writing appeared on the page.

"Wow!" Harry said in awe.

After taking a deep breath, he started reading. A part of him was feeling guilty, but, curiosity to know about what was in the diary, overpowered it.

'Wow I am actually writing in it.'

'I need someplace to vent out. I think this will do.'

Harry turned the page.

'I just realized; I am in love with him. But he has eyes for just that Ravenclaw beauty.'

'Why can't he see that I am a girl as well, even if not as beautiful as her? Ha! I answered my own question.'

'Ouch! It hurts bad.'

Harry realized that the diary belonged to a girl, a girl who was in love with someone and had some issues regarding her looks.

'Who could it be? Definitely, a Gryffindor.' Harry thought.

He continued reading through the pages.

'You-know-who is back and I am glad he survived. I just love him so much.'

'She must have started writing 2 years back.' Harry thought.

Harry realized that he shouldn't read this. It was something, very private. However, he just couldn't resist.

'I am back home. I miss him. I just can't imagine what he would be going through right now.'

'What could have happened with the boy?'Harry mused and turned his attention back to the diary. Somehow, he felt as though if this diary was about him. He quickly discarded the idea.

'Fifth year has started. No one believes him that you-know-who is back.'

This struck Harry. Of course, it was him, whom nobody believed him last year about the return of Lord Voldemort. Ministry had done a great job to convince wizarding world that Harry was just an attention seeking prat.

'I just want to hug him and tell him that everything would be alright.'

Harry was sure that the boy in the diary was him. However, who could be this girl. Definitely, someone close to him.

'Could it be Ginny? After all she had a crush on me since her first year.' Harry thought.

'Today I saw the marks on the back of his hand. That awful Umbridge made him write the lines with his own blood. I know it hurts him, but he won't tell or show it. Stupid, stupid him.'

'He had a nightmare today. I want to comfort him, but I can't.'

'Today he finally asked the Ravenclaw beauty out. Last night he told that she kissed him. Here breaks first part of my heart and I can't even cry in front of everyone.'

'Today they have gone on their first date. However, I asked him to meet me at the three Broomsticks and he came, leaving his date. Okay I agree that he came because I said him that it was very important. So he didn't come for me. Accepted.'

Harry rubbed his head. He realized who it was. "Hermione" he whispered, taking in that he had opened a new world of secrets about his best friend.

Next

Fox Rain? merasa aneh nggak denger 2 kata itu? atau mungkin udah merasa familiar sama 2 kata itu? atau mungkin nggak merasa apa-apa?

nah, disini aku mau jelasin tentang fox rain.
sebenernya fox rain itu judul lagu dari penyanyi terkenal di korea, namanya Lee Sun Hee, cewek? iya cewek. nah lagunya itu jadi salah satu soundtrack di drama korea yang judulnya My Girlfriend Is A Gumiho, that's my favorite korean drama. kisahnya lucu, romantis, dan bikin ketagihan nonton lagi. Soundtrack-nya memang diadaptasi langsung dari drama ini. jadi judulnya dihubung-hubungin gitu.

lah apa hubungannya? perasaan judulnya My Girlfriend Is A Gumiho deh, nggak ada fox atau rain-nya? soalnya, Gumiho dalam bahasa korea berarti Nine-Tailed Fox, atau Rubah berekor-sembilan. Gumiho adalah semacam siluman Rubah berekor-sembilan, dan di drama itu, Gumiho saat menjadi manusia adalah wanita yang cantik.

trus rain-nya?
nah, rain atau hujan adalah hal yang paling berhubungan dengan Gumiho. karena saat gumiho merasa sedih atau menangis, hujan akan turun secara tiba-tiba.

aku udah suka banget sama lagu ini sejak pertama kali dengerin di drama itu. dari awal, menurutku lagu ini cocok banget buat orang galau, walaupun aku dulu nggak tau arti dari liriknya. tapi nadanya yang sendu dan mendayu-dayu bikin aku yakin kalo lagu ini memang lagu galau. haha

nah, setelah aku tau english version-nya, ternyata lagu ini emang nyentuh, jleb banget dan bikin aku nangis.

well, ini aku kasih english version-nya



I still don’t understand love
So I can’t get any closer
But why does my foolish heart
keep pounding?

I’m haunted by you again and again
I just can’t get away
This hopeless love
Hurts my heart so much

Going from day to night
You’re all I think about
Being so pitiful and silly
What should I do?

The heart follows love
What am I going to do?
This hopeless love
Hurts my heart so much

Going from day to night
You’re all I think about
Being so pitiful and silly
What should I do?

The day when my pain fades away
Will that day ever come?
Being so pitiful and silly
What can I do after all?

The-boy-with-glasses

Sejak hari itu, sejak aku duduk tepat di belakangmu dan mulai bisa mengenali tawamu, candamu, senyummu, bahkan raut wajahmu, aku sadar akan satu hal. aku bukanlah untukmu. kamu mau bertanya kenapa? haruskah kujawab saat ini juga? atau mungkin kamu sudah menemukan jawabannya? baiklah, karena aku tahu. ya, aku tahu. aku bukanlah wanita yang tepat untuk ada di depanmu saat kamu tertawa, saat kamu bercanda, dan saat kamu tersenyum. aku hanyalah wanita yang tepat untuk ada di belakangmu, karena walau tidak jelas, aku tetap bisa melihatnya, melihat indahnya senyummu. karena senyum dan tawamu, bukanlah untukku..

sejak hari itu, sejak aku tak bisa menghapus indahnya senyummu dari mimpi-mimpiku, aku mulai memaksa, memaksa diriku sendiri untuk melupakannya. namun semakin aku melupakannya, bahkan semakin jelas tawamu berdengung di telingaku, semakin jelas senyummu menari di mimpiku. kenapa? apakah aku semakin mencintaimu? tapi kamu bukan untukku..

sejak hari itu, aku mulai memikirkan cara untuk menghapus segalanya tentangmu dari mimpiku yang, aku tahu, tak akan pernah terwujud. namun semakin aku memikirkan cara itu, semakin jauh rasanya hal itu. bahkan ini  semakin memperjelas segalanya. sejak hari itu, mungkin, aku semakin mencintaimu.

namun satu hal mengubah segalanya, mengubah keadaan, mengubah perasaan, bahkan mengubah cinta itu. aku mulai membukanya suatu ketika, dan saat aku melihatnya, aku sadar, sangat sadar, bahwa hal itulah yang mengubah perasaanku, apa hal itu? yaitu saat aku tahu, senyummu dan tawamu adalah untuknya, untuk wanita itu.
dan sejak hari itu, aku belajar akan kehidupan, bahwa hal yang menurut kita tak akan bisa dilupakan, bahkan bisa sangat mudah dilupakan dengan satu hal kecil yang merubah segalanya.

sincerely,
lyndi monica:)

this is for you, but this is the last.
you're her, not mine, and I realize it.
thank you for everything, GAK.

Kali ini gue pengen ngebahas film yang emang lagi booming banget di Indonesia maupun di dunia. The Raid. Nah, siapa sih orang indonesia yang nggak tau film ini? film garapan Gareth Evans ini merupakan film action indonesia pertama yang bisa mendunia. keren banget dong. nah menurut gue sih para sutradara indonesia yang pikirannya ngeres mulu dan selalu bikin film nggak mutu mending berkaca deh dari film ini. nggak perlu mengumbar dada-paha kan untuk mendunia? kita semua orang-orang indonesia udah bosen bin muak ngeliat film garapan sutradara indonesia yang isinya dada-paha semua! kalo diliat dari judulnya juga nggak ada yang mutu, nggak masuk akal, terlalu mengada-ada, dan isinya? ya itu-itu aja, cewe diperkosa, mati, dikubur, trus gentayangan deh, idih banget.

well, back to The Raid ya. pertama kali gue nonton film ini, gue langsung ngomong, "WOW! this is really absolutely definitely AWESOME!" gue bener-bener dibikin mangap sama action-action yang ada di film itu. bener-bener keliatan REAL. kabarnya sih koreo actionnya dibikin langsung sama pemain utamanya, Iko Uwais dan Yayan Ruhian yang basically emang atlet silat. selain sama actionnya, gue juga terpesona sama pemain utamanya, Iko Uwais, dia keliatan laki-laki banget dan bikin melting. over all, THE RAID IS THE MOST AWESOME ACTION MOVIE I'VE EVER WATCHED deh, bener-bener perlu dicontoh buat para sutradara indonesia lain nih, bukan dalam arti 'mem-plagiat' loh, tapi dicontoh kreatifnya!

well, langsung aja nih gue kasih trailer plus sinopsis film The Raid: Redemption.
CHECK THIS OUT!



Sekelompok tim SWAT tiba di sebuah blok apartemen yang tidak terurus dengan misi menangkap pemiliknya seorang raja bandar narkotik bernama TAMA. Blok ini tidak pernah digerebek atau pun tersentuh oleh Polisi sebelumnya. Sebagai tempat yang tidak dijangkau oleh pihak berwajib, gedung tersebut menjadi tempat berlindung para pembunuh, anggota geng, pemerkosa, dan pencuri yang mencari tempat tinggal aman.